selimeneli

jhnmyr: A week out is too close not to share part of my new...

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 17:51:35 -0400

A week out is too close not to share part of my new song with you.

Single hits iTunes next Tuesday…

Enjoy (partially)

JM

Future Love.

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 17:43:31 -0400

Maybe i have high expectations

nahhhh, just expectations that many guys dont have because of how easily they are influenced cus of this generation.

i want a guy that ive known for a long time

known him MONTHS even a few years before we even start going out

he should know my boundaries

he should respect me

someone who would protect me

someone that will love me

faithful

i want him to be romantic

i want a guy that LIVES from the 80’s

i want him to be outside of my window with a boom box playing my favorite song

i want a guy that would do ANYTHING to make me laugh when im feeling down

i want a guy to be there for me

i want him to start of as my best friend

i want my husband to be my best friend and the only man in my life

i hope that at this moment.. my future love is being taken care of.

i hope that he isnt hurting

i hope he is having an amazing life

because for me to partake in his life…

it would be such an honor.

because i can tell you know…

i love you.

i love you with all my heart.

i love you even if i havent met you

i pray to God that he will lead me to someone wonderful that will love me.

i ask for YOU everyday.

i dont worry about any relationship right now

i know im young

i have to achieve my goals and stuff

and im fine with that

i find it hard to make a relationship work when im supposed to love/care for someone and help them with their problems when i dont even know myself.. or how to solve my own problems.

i want this guy to be a fool; make me laugh; sense of humor

i want him to ask my parents to marry me

i want him to ask my parents to even GO OUT WITH ME

every little thing counts…

if you know me, you know i dont ask for a lot.

i just want the love from you.

i believe that its the thought that counts, honestly.

people dont believe me when i say it, but its true.

just the thought of a guy.. going out of his way to see me, to be with me, and to just hang out.. its amazing..

I feel i ask for too much, about what i want in a guy and stuff..

but the last and final thing.

I want my guy to be a virgin.

thats something i pray so hard about.

being able to share that with someone…

i will be.. blown away.. and just so blessed.

i know a lot of people dont believe in abstinance.

and it breaks my heart… im afraid that my future significant other will not be pure.

not saying that it will change anything if I’m already in love.

i just want him to be pure.

something ive always wished for.

that will honestly just make me feel… words can even explain.

thats what i see in my future love.

and ill just have to see… wish me luck.

Where are you going Selena?

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 17:20:50 -0400

im stuck.

i feel hopeless.

i dont know what im going to do with my life.

people need to understand, noone can.

i have no idea where i will be in 10 years.

i know i have to do my best in school.

i know i have to accomplish my dreams

i know

i know…

but its just really frustrating that i dont know where im going.

everyone i hang around with knows what they want to be.

even if their dreams arent realistic.

or maybe its just a stretch

THEY KNOW WHAT THEY WANT

i dont even have a dream

well…

i have one..

Music Producer.

then Writing.

then Art.

then kids.

make up your mind selena.

i want to die leaving a mark on this world.

i want to be remembered as something.

thats just me

not saying that im gonnah do it so i can me “famous” or some shit.

cus thats not what i want.

i just want to die and my soul to be filled with joy that i could actually help someone

that all those years of feeling worthless and feeling like i couldnt help anybody finally payed off.

i just want to know…

Why.

Tue, 21 May 2013 19:33:36 -0400

I feel like I can’t do this anymore.
I keep it all in.
For what?
Nothing.
I’m hurting myself.
I thought I could do it.
You know?
Keep it all in.
Put a smile on my face.
I hate being like this.
I know people have it worse.
Call me selfish .
I
Don’t
Care
I feel nothing
How I cry myself to sleep at night. Dammit I know people have it worse than me.
I try to stand my ground.
Try to tell myself everything is okay. At the end of the day.
I feel like shit.
At this point is just useless.
I used have a reason to be upset. Now.. I’m just naturally not happy. Ridiculous.
What am I suppose to do.
I can’t even handle my own fucking emotions.
Just don’t know what to do.
If I keep this up I won’t be able to do any good to my life… Nor to the people I care about.
Just shut the fuck up Selena and keep on smiling.

.

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 22:14:58 -0400

Just fucking kill me. I’m so goddamn done.

oh.

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:18:02 -0400

“ill always be there”

“im here for you”

man. where are you now.

my mom thinks im a fuckign crazy person trying to take me to see a therapist and all you can do. is not be there. i guess yall are busy. whatever.

i dont care anymore.

im just the crazu little girl again.

happy my ass.

aint gonnah put my happy face out there.

probably am.

im just so tired of this.

HEY. I followed you ^_^

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:19:45 -0400

Why did you put it anonymous? Lolol

amen.. thank you.

Thu, 07 Mar 2013 18:33:58 -0500

amen.. thank you.

wow.

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 04:51:13 -0500

i get jealous too?!? omfg. wot is this…

timco0p: When the maker of tumblr is on your dashboard, always...

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 20:45:36 -0500

timco0p:

When the maker of tumblr is on your dashboard, always reblog.

Number one rule of Tumblr.

unf wot.

exactly.

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 19:22:04 -0500

exactly.

who am i.

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 18:49:27 -0500

the act i put out there for everyone to see.

school.

friends.

people everywhere.

they see me as a happy motherfucker.

honestly, ive been feeling like shit.

what am i still doing here?

im done with all this..

ugh. i hate saying that.

because its so hard……

i cry.

yet noone sees it.

i cant just change how i am.

ive been this way.

im useless.

just let me die.

why care for me?

only thing i feel i have ever done for anyone is…

make their life difficult.

bye . dead.

lonely.

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 16:49:01 -0500

there is no day that goes by.. that i dont think of you.

all those memories…

all the smiles.

the good things

the good times.

it probably isnt you i miss.

just miss the feeling i had.

my emotions.

how happy you made me.

how when you were sad…

i could be the one to cheer you up.

only me..

you changed my bad day, into an amazing day.

you made me happy.

i loved you.

i feel like i still love you.

but i dont..

i cant .

we dont even talk.

i miss our conversations.

i miss how happy you made me.

into who you helped me become.

you made me better.

you said we could make it work.

yet, you have a girlfriend.

dont get me wrong.

i LOVE that you are happy.

honestly.

i just remember…

how that used to be me.

i was the happy one.

your hugs….

your w o r d s ~ <3

sweetest things anyone could say to me.

everytime i see you.

“everything comes back”

its the loneliness talking.

but honestly. i feel nothing. ive lost so many things in life.

that when something great comes to me.

i ignore it.

i take it for granted.

i push people away..

yet. i will loved them till the day i die.

why does this happen to me?

why cant everything be at my favor.

i hate this.

im not the kind of person that would say “i wish i could die”

and when i do, i mean it.

but the past couple of days.

thats all ive been thinking.

death.

im done.

John Mayer Mai: The phrase I use a lot: “I’m done.” Am I really “DONE”? No. I was...

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 18:05:43 -0500

John Mayer Mai: The phrase I use a lot: “I’m done.” Am I really “DONE”? No. I was...:

elloitsjohn:

The phrase I use a lot: “I’m done.” Am I really “DONE”? No. I was never done. All the times I claimed I was finished was just me excusing myself from the true meaning: “I’m trying.” Every time you hurt me, I tell myself and everyone, “I’m done.” But on the inside, I try so FUCKING hard to…

I see the shadow going through your thoughts. Destroying every peace of hope you ever had.

me.

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 15:07:00 -0500

I AM SO DAMN. TIRED.

of EVERYTHING.

bitch.

you cannot be talking about my friends like that.

niggah. they are NOT the problem.

you are.

dont fucking make me go bad to my old self.

but im so damn sure. i want that.

i cant wait to leave.

go far away.

with someone.

even better, alone.

leave all you motherfuckers behind.

and only talk to the real niggas that i know.

which arent many either.

im just so sick and tired of all the bullshit you have prepared for me.

and im not about to fall for it.

not like everyone else did.

you stupid hoe.

i hate you with a passion.

and you dont even know it.

You'll be fine.

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 19:46:50 -0500

i love you so much.

you wont be hurt.

not anymore.

im here.

to save you.

ill always save you.

a l w a y s ~

when you fall.

when your dumb self trips.

i will ALWAYS be there.

you are my best friend.

ive never felt like this.

only for three other people…

not even.

i love you so much. xx

and in the future…

i will show you all of this.

and then,

you will know..

i am a friend that no matter what. will be there.

xxxxxxxxx

broken penmanship and crooked lines: Q: Why do you have a tattoo if the Bible speaks against it?

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 19:25:07 -0500

broken penmanship and crooked lines: Q: Why do you have a tattoo if the Bible speaks against it?:

rebekahlynnlove:

A: You’re thinking of the verse in Leviticus, right?

“Do not cut your bodies for the dead, and do not mark your skin with tattoos. I am the Lord.” Leviticus 19:28

You see, back then people would tattoo themselves (and do other crazy things) to worship false gods. Obviously God doesn’t want His…

I dont reblog much. But i love this soooo much, i had to.

wow.

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 00:55:44 -0500

“i will always remember you”

i miss you so fucking much.

it isnt even funny.

this goes out to everyone.

i hope i did the right decision.

I KNOW.

i did the right thing.

so, till next time buddies. <3 xoxoxo

im always there. Why arent you?

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 00:51:25 -0500

Im always there to cheer you up.

i support you in EVERYTHING.

even if i dont like it.

i stil support it..

why?

because it makes you happy.

i cant really do anything about it.

I just hope…

you realize im in pain….

and that…

i need you.

maybe tonight.

more then ever.

just pick up the phone..

and call me.

please.

im not saying i dont like being for there for you.

because.. i dont tell you this.

but it makes me so damn happy.

when im able to try and change your mood.

I love making you happy.

you are one of the most important people in my life.

and i dont want to get attached.

but i think it already happened.

but ill be okay.

because i love you with all my heart.

my awesome, amazing, understanding friend. <3

again?

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 20:05:10 -0500

crying to myself…
no one is here…
how can this happen.
i thought i was over it.